Friday, April 5, 2013

Middle Ground


Last night I returned from a four-day fishing trip to Eastern Washington.  The great thing about fishing is that it forces you to slow down and listen, at least the kind of fishing I like to do.  Of the four lakes fished, I was the only fisherman on three of them.  I don’t bring an MP3 player, there is no cell phone service at two of the lakes, and the phone is off at the other two.  I sit in an inflatable craft that requires me to wear waders and flippers to move and not become soaked.  I have enough storage in this thing to carry my lunch, a water bottle, rain jacket, sunscreen, a couple of extra spools for the fly reel, some extra leader material, and four or five small, clear plastic boxes of flies.
When not thinking of how I’m going to catch my next fish, or watching an osprey trying to catch its own fish, my mind is free to drift like the small waves being nudged along by the light breeze.  My favorite days are when my mind tends to latch on to fun topics like sex, or food, or sports, or where I’m going to fish next.  This trip’s mental theme was not so sunny, even though the weather was.  No, for some reason, politics and the dark side of human behavior kept blaring away inside my thick skull. 

It didn’t help that the camp sites at three of the four lakes were completely trashed.  At the last lake it was mostly just the usual wrappers, broken beer bottles, and cigarette butts.  There were wads of toilet paper strewn all over the bushes and ground, even though there was a public bathroom only fifty yards away.  At the most remote lake there were broken fishing rods, beer and pop cans, various packages of fishing bait and equipment, and even two abandoned pickup truck seats by the fire ring.  The worst of all was at the first lake, where there was gang graffiti on the outhouse, every sign, and on many of the big rocks.  The broken glass there was to the point that I couldn’t take two steps in any direction without stepping on it.  The worst part was the dead dog that someone had just dumped  recently.  Good thing the dog hadn’t been there long enough to really smell the place up.  The sensible side of my brain said, “Let’s just get the hell out of here!”  The stubborn side won out, with “I’m not gonna let a bunch of punk-assed gangbangers keep me from fishing!”  What kind of people go out of their way to visit a remote lake and then just trash it?

This was the back-drop of the trip’s big question, “Where have the level-headed people gone?”  I’ve been wondering that a great deal lately.  It seems like this country is becoming more and more polarized.  Even though I didn’t vote for him, I took great joy knowing that a brown-skinned man like Barack Obama could be elected as president.  I didn’t vote for President Obama because I felt he was just saying anything he could to get elected, and I felt Ralph Nader had a much better plan to get us out of Iraq and balance our national budget.  I didn’t vote for McCain because I didn’t want my tax dollars to keep supporting tax breaks for the wealthy, and I didn’t want another president who might feel it was his duty to declare war an another country full of brown-skinned people.

I was reassured in my decision to not vote republican by the absolute hate and venom unleashed at Barack Obama by all of these supposedly respectable white men and women after the past two elections.  I thought much of the blame put on President Bush was unreasonable, but it was nothing compared to what is being hurled at our current president.  Maybe we have come a long way since Martin Luther King’s days and maybe we haven’t come so far after all.

The tragic killings in Aurora, Colorado and especially at Sandy Hook elementary have me deeply worried.  The shootings themselves were, of course, tragic enough, but what really has me worried are the reactions of many people after the shootings.  An enormous segment of our society apparently could care less about all of the innocent people who were gunned down. 

What this segment of our population cares most about are guns.  It is just plain sickening to me.  Little first-graders were killed and all of the gun people lined up to either ban guns or worship guns.  Is that what it has come to?  God, I hope not.  If you own guns then you are labeled a red-neck by the left-wingers.  If you own guns but believe AR 15s and AK 47s are too excessive, then the right-wingers don’t want to believe you exist and call you a liar and a liberal.  Yes, I do own some guns.  Yes, I do hunt with these guns.  So what?  The lives of those poor little kids and their families is and always will be more important than your damn guns or the rights of Remington, Ruger, or Browning to sell all of weapon and ammunition that they can.  And no, I don’t think that those of us who do own firearms should be penalized by the actions of the criminally insane.  Both sides seemed to completely lose sight of the human element.  Those victims and their families deserve better.

Is affordable health care for everyone in this country really a bad thing?  Can the greatest economic power on the planet afford to make sure we all can be treated both physically and mentally?  Or should adequate health care be reserved for only a certain, privileged segment of our country?   Follow the money.  Where are your priorities?

Are we as a country really this polarized?  I hope not.  But the politicians and those who back them seem to think so.  What happened to those of us in the middle?  Are we being drowned out or are we being lazy enough to let ourselves get drowned out?  I would like to think our country has not been reduced to the Liberals vs. the Teabaggers.  I’d like to think most of us are still using our own heads and not letting the extremists on either end do our thinking for us.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

What is Cool

Waylon Jennings began a song with, "The only two things in life that make it worth livin'..."

So this got me to thinking the posts have been kind of heavy lately, maybe it's a good time to lighten things up...

So here's an incomplete list that will always be open to revision...

Kids' Happy Laughter
Sunsets
Family (most of the time, anyway)
Watching An Athletic Woman Move
The Smell of Mountain Hemlock and Heather
The Feel of Granite
The 400m Relay
Catching a Bright Fish On a Fly Rod
Good Movies and Music
Waking Up In a Warm Sleeping Bag On a Cool Morning
Fall Sunshine On Aspens
Dirty Jokes
The Sound of a Small Alpine Creek Running Through a Meadow
A Driftwood Fire On an Ocean Beach With No One Else Around
Watching Bears
The Taste of Fresh Barbequed King Salmon
A Conversation That Makes Me Think
Naps In the Sun


To be continued.

Monday, March 18, 2013

You Learn Something New...

My dad has never been much of an imparter of wisdom.  He's always been more of a doer than a talker.  He is remarkable in many ways, but that's a topic for another day.  The reason I brought him up is that one of the things he did used to say from time to time when I was growing up was, "You Learn Something New Every Day."  Today, I discovered this gem for the first time...

George Catlin’s Creed

  • I love a people that have always made me welcome to the very best that they had.
  • I love a people who are honest without laws, who have no jails and no poorhouses.
  • I love a people who keep the commandments without ever having read or heard them preached from the pulpit.
  • I love a people who never swear or take the name of God in vain.
  • I love a people “who love their neighbors as they love themselves”
  • I love a people who worship God without a Bible, for I believe that God loves them also.
  • I love a people whose religion is all the same, and who are free from religious animosities.
  • I love a people who have never raised a hand against me, or stolen my property, when there was no law to punish either.
  • I love and don’t fear mankind where God has made and left them, for they are his children.
  • I love a people who have never fought a battle with the white man, except on their own ground.
  • I love a people who live and keep what is their own without lock and keys.
  • I love a people who do the best they can. And oh how I love a people who don’t live for the love of money.

Gatlin was a painter and writer who traveled and lived among various indian tribes in the 1800s.
Sometimes I still think I was born 200 years too late.  Not too late to live by this creed to as great a degree as possible.


Sunday, March 17, 2013

Not A Straight Line

Been doin' some thinkin' lately and one thing that popped up is that life for me has not been linear.  There used to be this drawing toy, I think it was called a Spirograph.  With the Spirograph you could draw these little circles all over the place.  I was thinking today that life has been more like one of those Spirograph drawings - going off in a direction but constantly circling back on itself.  I've been doing a lot of that circling back lately for one reason or another.

Keep circling back to past experiences or lessons or interests, but still kind of moving forward at the same time.  I've lately been trying to figure out why I've been pushing so hard against all of the recent trends in education in my own teaching and my own philosophy regarding education.  It's all been such a monumental mountain of crap lately.  Yet I've been pulled strongly back to my roots of environmental education, and putting so damn much time and effort into an educational endeavor that is running completely counter to what it seems like everybody else has been embracing(assessment and data analysis).  I know the kids don't give a rat's ass about assessment and analysis, and neither have I.

Ya, sure, you have to play the game if you want to stay employed, but my heart has been into taking the curriculum and winding it up as much as possible with the outdoors for these kids.  Why?  Well I came across this old video of Floyd Red Crow Westerman talking.  The whole thing is good, and definitely worth watching, but the part that hit me where it counts is at about the 7:36 mark, entitled "Corrupting the Children."  This is it.  This is why.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

So Far Away...

What made you do it?  The guy definitely looked creepy on T.V.  But to shoot him?  At least you didn't kill him.  God you must be hurting!

I remember when your sister was killed.  How they found her baby still alive, clinging to her lifeless body.  How devastating it was for you and your family.  How numb you all looked.  So many memories coming flooding back, like it was only a couple of years since, not over a quarter century.

It was heartbreaking to see you handcuffed on the news.  Your athletic grace has not left you.  I still have a few slides from our time out in the islands.  The ex threw away your letters long ago.

So much has come flooding back tonight.  The music, your apartment, watching you pitch, the sunsets at Redondo, how you looked in that dress when I talked you into dressing up and going out.  The frustration, confusion, and the feelings of helplessness have all returned, as well.

How much pain have you been carrying?  They said you have been even worse off lately.  I so wished I could have helped you then.   I sadly wish someone could have helped you now. 

I also wish I could say I have become a huge success, but here I am writing to someone I haven't seen in over 25 years who will never read it.  Yes, I'm still working with kids, 25 years into the teaching career I began back then.  With that part of life I have no regrets, it's even more rewarding now than then.  Now, 25 years later, watching you on T.V., I feel just as alone as I did in those days driving back to Ellensburg.

I wish you well, Chief.  I have thought of you now and then over the years.  You will be in my prayers once again.  I hope they don't punish you too harshly.  I hope you can get the help you need and some much-deserved relief from your agonizing pain.

Love,
Boss