What made you do it? The guy definitely looked creepy on T.V. But to shoot him? At least you didn't kill him. God you must be hurting!
I remember when your sister was killed. How they found her baby still alive, clinging to her lifeless body. How devastating it was for you and your family. How numb you all looked. So many memories coming flooding back, like it was only a couple of years since, not over a quarter century.
It was heartbreaking to see you handcuffed on the news. Your athletic grace has not left you. I still have a few slides from our time out in the islands. The ex threw away your letters long ago.
So much has come flooding back tonight. The music, your apartment, watching you pitch, the sunsets at Redondo, how you looked in that dress when I talked you into dressing up and going out. The frustration, confusion, and the feelings of helplessness have all returned, as well.
How much pain have you been carrying? They said you have been even worse off lately. I so wished I could have helped you then. I sadly wish someone could have helped you now.
I also wish I could say I have become a huge success, but here I am writing to someone I haven't seen in over 25 years who will never read it. Yes, I'm still working with kids, 25 years into the teaching career I began back then. With that part of life I have no regrets, it's even more rewarding now than then. Now, 25 years later, watching you on T.V., I feel just as alone as I did in those days driving back to Ellensburg.
I wish you well, Chief. I have thought of you now and then over the years. You will be in my prayers once again. I hope they don't punish you too harshly. I hope you can get the help you need and some much-deserved relief from your agonizing pain.
Love,
Boss